Okay then

I'm confused but glad.
First of all I should explain a few things, well one thing really. Monday evening I broke up with Hannah, I'd decided we were too different and wanted different things. She took it a lot worse than I expected.

Today Hannah asked me to go for a walk with her so we could talk, I agreed knowing I kinda had to if I wanted to stay mates with her. It was absolutely freezing which was a bit annoying and at first things were a bit awkward as I'ld expected to be honest. But then at some point while we were walking along something changed. Things weren't awkward anymore, they seemed to be just like they were before we were going out, apart from the odd, cold joke aimed in my direction but I deserve that.

So thats why I'm glad, I've got one on my best mates back, confused as to what changed in her thinking between Monday and today, but mainly glad.

I'll be glad when its over

Theres nothing to write. I got nothing to say.

Things did change, rapidly. I ate, I put an extra hoodie on, time passed, and goodness did the happiness disappear. Sometimes I just wish that things mattered less, that I could get another chance but I can't. This is heavy, read the Unbearable Lightness of Being and you'll know what I mean.

So in the meantime I'm going to be philosophical. Weight was seen as negative, Lightness as positive. Maybe I should just not care it would make life so much easier. But I do, and I'm glad I do, but it makes things so much more difficult.

I'm happy

Its freezing
I'm starving
I only woke up 2 hours ago
but I'm happy.

Somehow I suspect that this is all going to change :-s

*Gulp*

The next few days/weeks could be.... erm.... interesting?
In the meantime I'm slightly annoyed as my itunes is now out of date (I uploaded a backup library off my old computer but its a few months old) :( so I'll have to reconnect the old computer sometime and get all my up to date files off it.

My phone is also annoyin me by flashin every ten minutes to say the battery's low. If it would just shut up I'm sure it'ld last twice as long.

Anyway I'm starving now, all I've eaten in the last 2 days is 2 pieces of toast and a small amount of roast dinner, so I'm gonna go eat something and wonder about the meaning of life.

Crap Crap Crap Crap....

If you dont know why dont ask, all may become apparent later
In the meantime I love squiggle: ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

:-D

Well its been a good couple of days.

Christmas was fantastic, obviously. I did my usual xmas morning trick of waking up about 6 and not being able to get back to sleep. I'm such a kid :P. It was worth it though... I got guitar hero :), and a new computer :D. Its fantastic it takes literally seconds to start up compared to the five minutes on the old one and it can play awesome games like Medieval 2:Total War (which I also got by the way). So that was pretty cool.

I've spent most of today playing with my new computer, installing all the necessary programmes: msn, iTunes, etc. and taking over the medieval world. Oh funny story from yesterday, quite embarressing I must admit but oh well:

So I've got my new computer and I manage to plug it in turn it on alright (I'm boss at computers me :P) then after making back-up DVDs etc. I try and connect it to the internet. First of all the wireless thing won't work, so then I try good old fashioned cables. So I plug the first cable in, try again (repeatedly) and nothing happens. Not sure what the problem is at the moment, keeps coming up with an error message about service name. After about half an hour of playing around with that I try a different cable, still nothing.
Meanwhile, my mum was doing her usual family phone call and happened to have my uncle on the phone, who works with computers. So she puts me on the phone to try and sort it all out. He starts telling me stuff to do (Vista doesnt have an obvious link to Run... which is really quite stupid but oh well), while hes thinking it through and trying stuff on his computer and start clicking a few buttons that I hadn't noticed before and doing other little bits, one of which was pushing the cable firmly into both sockets... and voila. It starts working. I explain rather embarressed to my uncle that the cable wasn't in properly then wish him a Merry Christmas and quickly pass the phone back to my mum.

So that was rather embarressing but it could have been worse... somehow. Anyway I've forgetten what my point was so the basics are: Computer is amazing, as is guitar hero, and Merry Christmas everybody (even if it is a bit late)

Oh yeah forgot to mention: my computer has 4 processors, 4!!!! Thats more than the rest of the PCs in my house put together. So its awesomely quick :D.

2 hours til christmas

Its finally here... almost.

I've had a good, if kinda strange, day. It was my mate's birthday and knowing her it was always gonna be slighty weird yet wonderful.

Spent most the day at her house, me with 4 girls, it's weird I kinda like being the only lad sometimes, at other times its just fricken annoying tho. Anyway it was good fun, we played guitar hero, pool, twister and spoons. Spoons ended kinda badly though :-S. And well then it was kinda weird being the only lad but thats someone elses story.

I've kinda been up and down the last few days, more so than usual (and only inside my head not on the outside, I think), but all is good now... I mean its christmas (almost) how could it not be good? (rhetorical for the people thinking of depressing answers right now)

So yeah the next few days should be good, and interesting, until I go back to college. I'm sure everything will settle back into its normal, rather boring, routine then. I guess I should only have a couple of weeks of excitement at a time :P

Its probably my own fault but...

I hate people sometimes

This morning I only went to bed at 5am... probably not a good idea but I wasnt expecting to do anything the next day before noon so I thought I'ld survive.

Instead I got woken up at 9. Who on earth is up at that time?!? First of all its a call of my mum to check my sister has actually gone to work... shes 18 you would have thought she could look after herself by now, apparently not. So I climb out of bed and go look into my sisters room. The smell as I enter the room is horrendous! The alcohol she was drinking last night obviously didnt agree with her, it stinks of stale sick. Anyway I manage to look in, almost throwing up myself, and she wasnt there so I tell my mum that she has gone before going back to bed.

Then I have to let the guy decorating the bathroom in. I do that then crawl back to bed, only to have to fetch an extension cable for him, not really a big problem normally but I was absolutely dead. So I nick the extension cable that the christmas tree lights were plugged into and once again drag myself back into bed. Only to find out that the extension cable was to plug his drill into... and my bedroom is next to the bathroom.

After 10 minutes all goes quiet again and I slip back to sleep. Of course today would be the day he's finishing so about 20 minutes later I'm woken up again to let him out the house and lock the door behind him. So finally I think I can safely get a couple of hours sleep, but apparently it wasnt my day, as one of my sister's mates ring to ask if she's there. I explain, as politely as I possibly could in the state I was in, that she was at work and then hang up.

Eventually I get back into bed and set my alarm for a couple of hours time. I woke up about 4 hours later after my alarm failed to wake me, many many times.

Whoopdi F***ing Doo

I'm not actually annoyed I just felt like putting that.

This evening I had a fairly average, but funny, christmas concert with JOY (the orchestra i play with). They seem to be the same every year. It was good fun though, even the incredibly obvious wrong note I played :p, somehow I got away with it!

I realised that I haven't actually done any revision yet this holiday, probably not a good plan since I have 5 modules in January but oh well... I'll start tomorrow... Honest! Also haven't touched either my clarinet or my saxophone (except for at JOY) in about 2 weeks or summit... oops.

So far these have been rather unproductive, but fun, holidays. Unfortunately that may have to change :(. But in the meantime I dont care.

Not sure what to put so... (but dont quote me on this)

I'm tired... I should go to bed
The thoughts running through my head... they can't be good, they can't be right.

They just cant


But what if they are




Edit (29/12/08): I hate being right sometimes

The morning of the living dead

I'm trying to find something to do for the next few hours until I go out to Manchester.
Unfortunately everybody else has some common sense and has stayed in bed unless they've got a very good reason to get out of bed. So I'm gonna end up sat here listenin to music and flicking through pointless web pages... fun, fun, fun.

Today has been:

FANTASTIC

Life seems interesting again.
Christmas holidays have finally started
I had a great afternoon/evening out with friends
And I'm not gonna say anymore till morning :)

(alcohol has bad effects as well)

I've started sleeping less

I don't go to bed for 2 reasons.
Don't want today to have ended as just been another day.
Don't want tomorrow to just be another day.
When did life become boring?

Weird Things...

I forgot to mention this morning that I'd missed the bus for the first time since I started college... It was gonna happen eventually. I saw it drive past as I was walking down the road towards it and begain leggin it to try and catch it but I was never gonna catch it. Fortunately my dad was drivin past so I got a lift to the Bus Station in Ormskirk and got on the bus there so all was well.

I only had and hour and a half of lessons today, most of which was physics since we got let out of Biology an hour early, which was quite cool I have to say... Got even less tomorrow, especially since I'm not plannin to go to the one lesson I do have :).

I got quite annoyed today as someone blocked my phone cos I was ignorin them... I tell you I wasn't exactly pleased with that but its alright cos she let me use her phone to call Blyk and get the code to unlock it.

Its a week before christmas and I finally started my shopping :). I'ld already bought some stuff on the internet but I don't think I'ld been in a shop this month before today which is quite odd.

Sorry about the kinda borin blog I think the tiredness from the not going to bed before midnight from the last week is beginning to set in. So I'm gonna end on a positive:

One Week till Christmas :)

Almost

So nearly got out of bed on time this morning.
But then I decided that my bed was too comfy and didn't move for another 15 minutes.
My morning ran as usual after that... no time for breakfast but did manage to shave successfully this morning, my face feels nice and smooth.

Anyway just had Physics with Scrooge (Rob) and he actually let us out early... AND he gave Chloe a Crispy Cream Doughnut, maybe he does have a heart after all.

Anyway sat in the IT room now and Kirstys bein annoyin so I betq2`1hn2 (that was Kirsty) so as I was saying I better go.

Twilight, Oversleeping and Facial Hair

Well I started... and finished reading twilight last night, at about 3am, I have to admit it is a good book.
However it meant I was very tired this morning and after getting a quick shower and shaving, badly as anyone whos seen the right side of my face this morning will back up, it was time to go.
I got a lift to the bus stop again and was very glad of it. I've felt suprisingly awake all morning but I think the lack of sleep is beginning to catch up with me.
Everyone was giving out Christmas cards this morning and I'm starting to feel bad for not bothering with them but oh well.
I'm gonna go eat summit and hope that that will wake me up a bit. :)

10 Questions

Is it bad that I'm excited about another evening sat at home... doing absolutely nothing? :)
What is so controversial about what someone has got me for Christmas that everybody else is talking about it?
What is the answer to life the universe and everything? (if its not 42)
Should I eat the Hula Hoops sat on my desk now or later?
Since when did I become the evil one at college?
Why did I decide to read Twilight?
Is there anything decent on TV on Tuesdays?
When did I become one of the confident people?
Why do blogs always seem to have cheesey titles?
Why do I always forget what I was gonna put as the last question?

Crash and Burn (brackets)

It's been one of those days. On the bus I stuck my headphones in and revised biology to avoid having to talk to people... Good decision I may have killed someone otherwise, and the biology revision was actually quite sucessful.

Got to college and only a couple of my mates were around, which was probably a good thing. Loud noises that early in the morning would not have helped.
The rest of the morning was fairly normal, apart from a stronger than usual urge to kill Rob, my physics teacher (I say stronger than usual because its there almost every physics lesson, even though I quite like physics, its weird).

Anyway at lunch I was playing with the Jazz band at Winbalm (Winstanley Bands and Live Music (I think)) which was always going to be interesting. In the end it kinda crashed and burned. Hardly anyone was there and, in the end, that was probably a good thing. The first piece was hmm how to put this, well Paul called it a trainwreck as soon as we finished and that pretty much summed it up. It got slightly better for the next 2 pieces, but not much.

I have Monday afternoons off so I crashed in the library with a mixture of facebook, music, Emma and finishing off this mornings epic blog. The journey home was spent talking to James about music then politics, (can't believe I'm back to talking about politics but oh well).

When I got home I put on a big warm hoodie and grabbed a blanket, and talked to some people on msn, probably not a good idea in the mood I'm in but for now that's their problem (I sound really evil) and well that's how I'm going to stay for most the evening I imagine.

Sleep

"Better stop dreaming of the quiet life
cos it's the one we'll never know
And quit running for that runaway bus
cos those rosey days are few
And stop apologising for the things you've never done,
Cos time is short and life is cruel
but it's up to us to change
This town called malice." Blared out his phone for the tenth time in 20 minutes.

At last he stirred and fumbled around, eyes still shut, trying to find . Rolling over, his eyes slowly flickering open, he hit a button, hoping it was the right one. The music stopped. Closing his eyes again he slowly drifted back to sleep.

"Better stop dreaming of the quiet life..."

He cursed having set his phone to 2 minute snooze. He flicked the light on and made sure he definately found the off button this time. He turned on his ipod and listened to Oasis play Cigarettes and Alcohol before finally crawling out of bed.

Climbing out the shower 15 minutes later he finally looked at the time on the phone: 7:32
He was running late again.
Not bothering to shave he quickly through on the first clothes he found, his hair still dripping.
He quickly brushed his teeth then he sprayed on his deodorant. Except only air came out. Quickly he begain searching through the drawer for a new can.

At that instant there was a knocking on his bedroom door.
"Don't forget to tidy your room, the cleaners are coming today." His mother's voice echoed through the wood.

He looked around at the mess on his floor and realised that he had no chance of managing to grab breakfast and still make the bus in time.
As he threw piles of clothes under his desk and picked his folders up of the floor he wondered, yet again, why he couldn't just clean his own room and why they had to get cleaners in to do it.

He stopped half way through to pick up his ipod, only realising then that it was almost out of battery. He turned the socket on and hoped that it would get enough charge to last the day

When his room was finally about tidy enough to avoid getting moaned at by his mother in the evening he looked at the clock again.
7:52... time to go.
He pulled his bag off the floor then ran down the stairs, before running straight back up to grab a belt as his jeans began to slip down.
He grabbed his shoes off the radiator, hoping that they'd dried over night, sprayed on some deodorant out the spare can he kept in his hockey bag before heading for the door.

"I can give you a lift to the bus stop if you like?"

Finally something was going his way. He grabbed a couple of biscuits and an orange to eat on the way before, moving much more slowly than before, climbing into the car.

He got dropped off opposite the bus stop and skated across the frosty road, narrowly avoiding an uncomfortable landing. Sat at the bus stop he put his headphones in his ears, and waited for the bus to arrive, and the next part of his day to begin.

Well its been a good afternoon.
I went round to my mates house which was as much fun as I'ld hoped and then went off to encounter (the church service for students at our church) which was again quite good.

I really don't want to wake up for college tomorrow though :( college should start later on Mondays in my opinion.
But thats life for you.
So grrr at college and I'll probs be bloggin again tomoro

And all that jazz

Yesterday was one of the strangest days in a long time.
Yesterday was fricken mental

We won at hockey, thats a rare event in itself.
2-1 and one of the opponents got sent off after he through his stick at the fence and started arguing with one of our players, I think I did alright at calming our player down.

Then we went out for a meal at Nando's in Southport, the food was nice and it was good fun hanging with my mates. We went back to my mates house afterwards and got a bit hyper off cheapo version of red bull. All the girls who went were stayin over and the other lads went off to their mates house to drink beer and watch the x-factor, so I ended up walking home alone, something I do a lot so I wasn't too worried.

But instead of taking me half and hour it took me an hour and a half:

"Hey do you have a phone with credit that I can borrow please? My boyfriends left me and I'm not from around here." The girl begged.

"I guess so," I replied handing over my phone.

The girl punched in a number and held the phone to her ear. "Crap! It's turned off, do you mind if I walk with you for a bit."

I wasn't about to leave a girl stranded in the middle of a place she didn't know, I've been in a similar situation so I was quite sympathetic.
So we started walking, me still heading home since I was supposed to be home within the next half hour.
Turns out her name was Jazz (hence the cheesy title) and she was from fazakerly. Although she was quite sober by that point she couldn't really remember much about why her boyfriend had walked off without her, or why she had decided to get off the last train, instead of going home.

Eventually after about 10 minutes it turned out that I knew her best mate, Craig, as he'ld been at Merchants with me. I made a phone call to a mate and got Craig's number, however his phone wasn't working so I could only text, not call him.

Jazz tried ringing some other numbers but all her mates were too drunk to help. By this point it was 12:20 and we were sat at the end of my road. I'ld given up on making it home by 12:30 and decided I would just have to explain to my parents.

Eventually Craig rang back and agreed to pay for a taxi if Jazz got one to his house, so we rang for a taxi and after about 4 attempts they finally picked up and said the taxi would be 20 minutes. They were idiots though, when we said the end of Ryder Crescent they asked which end. It goes round in a circle, there is only one way in and out.

Half an hour later, still no taxi despite what seemed like hundreds going past. So Jazz started ringing every taxi number she saw go past. There must have been about four on their way when the one we ordered originally finally turned up. Jazz got in the taxi and that was pretty much the end of my night.

I managed to sneak in without waking my parents... so no questions have been asked yet, and ignored the calls off the taxi firms, presumably asking why there was no one there.

That has honestly got to be the weirdest thing to happen to me since the summer. And it really is a very small world, a girl from Fazakerly who got lost in Aughton and randomly chose me to talk to, ended up being the best mate of someone I went to high school with... quite weird in my opinion.

As for today, well I'm about to head round to my mates house as her parents are out for the afternoon, so that should be fun, and hopefully I'll have more to talk about later.

I'm impressed if you have bothered to read all this.

Moods and food

Well it sorted itself all our in the end
I had a feast: 133 square inches of soft dough covered in rich tomato sauce layered with mozarella cheese fresh from Italy topped off with juicy chunks of pineapple and succulent strips of chicken.
Ok it was a chicken and pineapple pizza but it was a good one, and good food can make all the difference.
In a better mood I text a few of my friends (five to be precise) and invite them over, it may not be an ideal Friday night but its better than nothing. 3 of them reply yes, 1 is busy and 1 just doesn't reply, I'll find out whats happened to him sometime.
But in the meantime my Friday night looks less gloomy.

I decide this is the time to appologize, so I send a text with suitable words of appology, and after a short period of confusion (8 hours) its all ok and looking back on it almost humorous.

So that was it, my friends came over we had a laugh, they left around 12, so I was left to chill out on here. Always good to relax.

So that was my evening and after 2 hours of msn, Judge Dread and music its probably about time I went to sleep. Tomorrow is another day.

Tic Tacs and Mocolate

If your wondering about the background, its called tic tac, I like tic tacs, so I thought I might as well use that one

As for Mocolate, well what do you think of when asked for a food beginning with M?
I was eating chocolate (in chemistry where your not supposed to eat, ah well), and I watch far too much Friends, so Mocolate was the obvious answer.

As you can probably tell from that story I've had a pretty ordinary day.
I'm now in one of those moods where I'm incredibly bored and likely to offend/annoy, ask my mate who I managed to offend quite badly as she got off the bus. Worse thing is I have to make some appology and at the moment I just can't face up to doing that, what is happening to me?
Of course if I don't appologize this is going to come back and bite me in the ass one day, soon, quite possibly tomorrow.

But that's just life.

In the meantime I'm watching junk on TV, blogging away and just hoping something comes along to brighten my day.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

And so it begins

First of all I'ld like to point out I'm only writing a blog for the sake of something to do
It'll probably die out within a few weeks if not a few days
I don't claim to be any good at writing
And I doubt anyone will ever read this
but here goes

The World according to Robbie:
Its mainly about Robbie to be honest but then no one blogs to write about other people.
Life is the most amazing thing ever and as things go mine ain't bad at all
I'm at a good college (2nd best in the country!)
I have a beautiful girlfriend (best in the country :p)
I have good mates
I'm part of a inspiring church
I still have so much free time that I bothered writing a blog
Best of all I'm 16 and can't wait for the rest of life to come and smack me full on in the face

I guess you can tell alot about me from the order they go in
I'm a bit of a nerd if I'm honest and I'm totally crazy about Hannah, everything else can take care of itself as far as I'm concerned.

And so it begins